Very weak

This week I decided to join the gym. I am starting out slow. When I mean slow, I mean slooooow. Being a dormant coach potato for the last decade or so I have become very weak.  Tuesday I started on the elliptical for 10 minutes, manual, level easy... my legs were on FIRE by minute two! I pushed through and moved on to working out my legs.  I had to adjust the weights on the machines to very low weight (Remember, I live in Texas and walk NO where, I drive).

Tonight, I set the elliptical for 12 minute, manual, level easy..... I wanted to quit by minute eight. I was sweating and had a heart rate of 167, you would think I was running a marathon, but I made it to 12 minutes. I had to stand there for about 5 more minutes to make sure I wasn't going to pass out when I got off.  So I decided it would be work-out-arms day...  I couldn't even put any weight on ANY of the machines... I took the pegs out of all the machines I went on, and was straining to lift, push, or pull the bars themselves, I don't think I completed a set on any of them. Well, at least I started. Maybe I wont feel so weak in the near future if I keep it up. It's just sad when you can't even lift 15 pounds with two hands.....

It feels like it's going to be a long road ahead of me

Love

I am a dreamer and my imagination soars about the possibilities that could be..... Maybe it's just because I'm a Pisces,,,,,

Sometimes I think about what life would be like living in Canada, or in Greece, or maybe even back in New York.

I think about traveling the world, and not having to work in my cubicle,

I think about what it would be like if things were different or if I did things differently.

And then I wake up in the morning, and my husband hugs and holds me, even  after 25 years together, and I realize I am happy right were I am, doing exactly what I'm doing.  That's love.

  

just pondering things....

It's been a struggle for me to post anything on this blog lately.  I just worry about saying too much, too little, too personal, not personal enough.......   Then I wonder who is reading my blog. The last post was in the beginning of July yet the biggest hit of views, was a single day in mid July from Russia.... really, why????  I'm not that interesting.

Anyway, I have been pondering at making some extra money on the side. I work a typical full time 8-5 job and am considering weekend work.  All of my artwork is piling up in the office/studio and I have not really put it out there to sell, just a couple of facebook posts.  Do I want a low paying weekend hourly job, or do I need to hit the pavement and try to sell art? I really don't know how to go about this. I just know that I need to offset some bills. I am also not sure about working 7 days a week either..... ( I don't consider creating art work). This is my dilema.

In all reality, I just wish I had enough money to just travel the world.  So since I don't, even though it's only August, I asked my husband for a really nice world globe for Christmas, so I can just dream.